It's been 3 years since my mom suffered from stroke and had re stroke June of 2019, i am still having anxieties and worries about how to handle things when its comes to my mom and my son (mother and daughter duties)... Well, good thing i have the greatest husband in the world... Blessed to have a very supportive and understanding man in my life...
Today, i just feel like i want to release my anxieties, doubts and worries in everything... I know that it's pretty normal to just overthink at times but i feel so anxious the past days and it bothers me a lot... I want to be a good mom, but at the same time i want to be a good daughter to my parents... I want to repay their sacrifices and I love them... But what if due to these duties and responsibilities time will come that i need to choose between my family (my son and husband) and my parents??? Well, I don't want to choose... I'm scared it might happen... I just want to do the best I can to serve both parties at the moment, but i get tired... I am tired and more often i feel like i am not doing well in my duties as mom, and as wife anymore because i am too busy making sure that my parents are okay and my siblings are fine too, most of the decisions are always mine to make and it's hard and my time is consumed of taking care of my mom... but I'm not complaining, I just need to unload these unhealthy emotions... What should I do..? should i just let this loose and be just who i want to be or just act like i don't care anymore because i am exhausted??? These things I am doing, to be a good mom and a daughter is so exhausting... life is so unfair and that's true, because i see people just having fun and not worrying of anything because they don't face the same challenges as I do... but i know that's life should be... Why do I feel this anyway??? and why do i have to feel this way when I know that time can heal and that everything happens for a reason...
I keep thinking Positively while Embracing all the negatives that had happened and happening to me... I wont stop praying... I will never give up my faith, God will not give me something I cant handle...
Well, enough with these dramas... I feel better now... so much better that i have vented out... I will always remember that no matter how hard problems would be, I will do my very best to solve them... If ever I fail, There 'll be no regrets, for i have done everything i can in my power...
Lastly, I realized that there are people who can be a distractions rather than an inspirations... just be careful... for we can be deceived by what they show or do which and we think are essential to us but in reality, useless... Trust God for He will be our guide in everything and in every way... as the song goes, read your bible and pray everyday...
Today, i just feel like i want to release my anxieties, doubts and worries in everything... I know that it's pretty normal to just overthink at times but i feel so anxious the past days and it bothers me a lot... I want to be a good mom, but at the same time i want to be a good daughter to my parents... I want to repay their sacrifices and I love them... But what if due to these duties and responsibilities time will come that i need to choose between my family (my son and husband) and my parents??? Well, I don't want to choose... I'm scared it might happen... I just want to do the best I can to serve both parties at the moment, but i get tired... I am tired and more often i feel like i am not doing well in my duties as mom, and as wife anymore because i am too busy making sure that my parents are okay and my siblings are fine too, most of the decisions are always mine to make and it's hard and my time is consumed of taking care of my mom... but I'm not complaining, I just need to unload these unhealthy emotions... What should I do..? should i just let this loose and be just who i want to be or just act like i don't care anymore because i am exhausted??? These things I am doing, to be a good mom and a daughter is so exhausting... life is so unfair and that's true, because i see people just having fun and not worrying of anything because they don't face the same challenges as I do... but i know that's life should be... Why do I feel this anyway??? and why do i have to feel this way when I know that time can heal and that everything happens for a reason...
I keep thinking Positively while Embracing all the negatives that had happened and happening to me... I wont stop praying... I will never give up my faith, God will not give me something I cant handle...
Well, enough with these dramas... I feel better now... so much better that i have vented out... I will always remember that no matter how hard problems would be, I will do my very best to solve them... If ever I fail, There 'll be no regrets, for i have done everything i can in my power...
Lastly, I realized that there are people who can be a distractions rather than an inspirations... just be careful... for we can be deceived by what they show or do which and we think are essential to us but in reality, useless... Trust God for He will be our guide in everything and in every way... as the song goes, read your bible and pray everyday...
